"You hear stories about Dunder Mifflin back in the 80s before they knew cocaine was bad. Man, they could move some paper!" -Michael from The Office

So last night, I had best time with Christy which was much needed.

Right now, though, my heart is aching. I am so lost. I miss this person, when at the same time I feel like I really have no reason. We weren't close. We hadn't spoken in like three months, maybe more. I just wish I could have told him so much. Told him that I never gave up on him. NEVER.

I'm also really lost about some other business in my life, but it's not really a big thing, so i am just choosing to ignore it for my sanity. [Although, if we know Sarah Countryman at all, then we also know that that is truly not possible...] I just really want to not stress about it.

I have Shakespeare Journals due tomorrow and I cannot make myself focus. I cannot really think about much, without my mind exploding, and me just wanting to burst into to tears.

It doesn't really help that my father basically told me he didn't want me around today. It really hurt my feelings, and then he proceeded to tell me that I was immature.

This post is really emo. Sorry kids. I have a lot of emotions running through my brain right now.

I need a good cry, but I cannot bring myself to ACTUALLY cry. It's a strange feeling. My chest feels slightly like it's going to implode if I don't, but I also feel like it will actually explode if I do. I really just need to run in to the woods and scream really loudly and release everything I feeling. Let it loose. Let it out of my soul. Cleanse my soul from these emotions.

I miss him so much.

I do.

All I want to do is to tell him I loved him.

Done.

SAC.