IHOP is crowded on Friday mornings at 2:13am.

It's true. I'm there.

And there are A LOT of VERY drunk and VERY loud people here. I have to write my paper, however, and I know myself well enough to know that if I went home, I would just go to sleep. Guhh. It's such a dilemma. It really is. I'm trying so hard to make this paper good. I really am enjoying writing it, now that I finally figured out what I can write a legit paper on. But, it's really hard to focus, when there are so many loud and drunk people so near me. I'm even having trouble focusing on this blog. That probably suggests that there is a serious issue here. I should go home.

Bah.

I'm going to.

Night.

Love love.

Sarah

Picture? I'm a pretty big fan of this one.

"I CELEBRATE myself, and sing myself, And what I assume you shall assume, For every atom belonging to me as good belongs to you" -Walt Whitman

Oh, Walt. How you make my heart smile.

Anyway, I've be rereading Leaves of Grass. It makes me happy. Which is good, because I've been in such an emo mood here lately. I don't know what that's about. I hear it has something to do with being female, but I won't go into that. Hmmm.

Anyway, I'm in the library. I should be working on my rough draft for African American or studying for Spanish, but my brain feels like it has liquefied. This is bad. I'm sort of feeling like I've shut down for the semester and that's not really a good thing. At all. I need to find some sort of "end of the semester-we're almost there" motivation or something. Guhh.

I am so ready for Saturday it's not even funny.

I'm frustrated about this situation I've got going on. I want to do something, but I also really don't. It's a complicated inner emotion. I want things to progress, but I also don't want to muck ANYTHING up where it is now. Bah. I talked to my mother, and she told me to just chill, and things will work out the way they should. So, since she is my mother and has never in my life given me a failed piece of advice, I think I'm going to listen to her and just not do anything at this point.

So, I officially changed my advisor to Mejia. That's right kids. Sarah Countryman's most hated person of all time is now her advisor. Which means [drum roll please...] she doesn't hate him anymore!! Whoo! I can certainly say that I believe anything is better than my previous advisor.

[I really should figure out how to transition better from one topic to the next...]

I pretty much have my schedule for next semester figured out. Which is ballin'. I can't believe in five and half weeks my junior year of college will be OVER and I'll be a SENIOR in college. That is so upsetting and so amazing at the same time. [Also a complicated inner emotions. I have a lot of those...]

So, I just have to make a brief comment here about how I really enjoy sitting in the library with friends, because they make laugh and feel better. Mark Bailey just made his head explode. It was pretty wonderful and epic. [Disclaimer: he didn't ACTUALLY make his head explode...]

Sigh.

I guess I should probably work on homework or something.

Love love.

SAC

So, I really like this picture, even though I'm making that "I'm getting something out of my teeth" face. Plus Tammy's pretty. Haha.



Edit:
I felt the need to add this picture. It's pretty fantastic, if I do say so myself.

A ramble of things.

I got the new Tyrone Wells CD. And I'm in LOVE with this song:

Sink or Swim:

Caught in the middle of a crossfire
Lost my balance on a high wire
Trying to figure out what to do

Pushed to the edge of my reason
Everywhere around me it's treason
I don't want to do that to you

Kamikaze airplanes in the sky
Are we going down or will we fly?
This could be a shipwreck on the shore
Or we could sail away forevermore
This time it's sink or swim, sink or swim

Hearing the song in your laughter
A melody I chase after
No one else has done this to me

Kamikaze airplanes in the sky
Are we going down or will we fly?
This could be a shipwreck on the shore
Or we could sail away forevermore
This time it's sink or swim, sink or swim

Take a deep breath
No more time left
This is what I thought I wanted
Why am I afraid?

Kamikaze airplanes in the sky
Are we going down or will we fly?
This could be a shipwreck on the shore
Or we could sail away forevermore

Kamikaze airplanes in the sky
Are we going down or will we fly?
This could be a shipwreck on the shore
Or we could sail away forevermore
This time it's sink or swim, sink or swim


Spring break. Hmm. It wasn't horrible. I did go to a Tyrone Wells concert which blew my face off. Then I chilled at home til Wednesday when I left with Chelsea to go to Memphis for Jordan's surgery. It went well, and he's at home now, which is good. But, both Chelsea and I are pretty worn out from early mornings and late nights and long drives.

Guh.

This is going to be the longest week of my life.

-Tomorrow I have a rough draft of my play due for playwriting. I did not know about this until about two hours ago. I want to cry. There is no way I can focus on it right now, because my brain is in like 2938743924 places. I'll work on it after my day classes tomorrow. I have time.
-Tuesday I have something for Faulkner. I'm not entirely sure what, but I have something... And I'm sure I'll hate it. I hate that class so much. It makes me want to die every time I think about it.
-Wednesday I have a Spanish test and a draft of my next African American Lit paper due.
-Friday and Saturday I have the Vagina Monologues.

I am not really sure how I'm going to make it through this week without having a nervous breakdown. I mean, maybe it will be good for me to have a nervous breakdown. I don't know. I'm going to try and stay as positive as possible.

My Aunt and Uncle will be here on Saturday. Which will be good. And much need. MUCH NEEDED.

Now to the subject of a job. I need one of those. Hmmm. I don't know what's going to happen with that. I should figure something out. But, I don't know if there is anything I can find to do off campus since the economy kind of sucks a lot right now. And as far as on campus... there's not really anything that I particularly want to do. However, I may have to just bit the bullet and do something I don't want to for a while just so I have some sort of way to fund my life.

Meh. This is such an emo post. I hate that. I don't really know why I'm in such a terrible mood. Hopefully tomorrow will actually be a good day since I'll see all of my friends that I haven't seen. I need to see people.

I think I'm going to bed now

I want to be happy like this right now:
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Love love.

SAC