I feel like all I've been doing lately is studying for Spanish. Bah.

Test tomorrow, and I'm done for a while. Then I have to focus on this Faulkner paper. Which HAS HAS HAS to be good. It HAS to be. I'm going to write about Ike from Go Down Moses. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do, but I'll figure it out.

I have to go talk to Dasher tomorrow about the class in general. I have no idea what I'm going to say to him, or what he will say to me. It's likely that I have will have a semi-nervous breakdown in his office. [Which, may actually make him feel sorry for me... hmm]. I don't want to have a nervous breakdown though. I'm not really all that stressed about much other than that class. Spanish is up and running again, and I'm not doing as badly in there as I thought I was. African American is at it's prime; I'm really loving that class right now. And Playwriting is wonderful simply because I so enjoy writing my play. So, Faulkner is really the only thing I'm having any sort of issues with.

Anyway... I feel like all of my posts have been so serious and heavy lately. So, on a lighter and a happier note: Thursday night and Friday day of this week are going to be ballin'. Pretty much going to be living with Emily for this time period. She and I are going to the Peach on Thursday night... yes my friends, the Peach. To have fun girl time. Don't hate. Then Friday day, since we don't have class, we're taking an adventure. We're not entirely sure where, but that's the fun part! I'm so excited.

I have a short story I'm working on now. One that I may actually post. I'm really liking it so far.

Right now, it's Spanish time.

Love love.

SAC

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

I can't really decide if that's a good thing.

When I think a lot, I tend to over-analyze things, and then I'm in a bad mood. I really hate being in a bad mood. It's awful. I'm not really in a bad mood right now. I'm more in a non-mood. I'm not really feeling much of anything right now. Perhaps that's best for now.

I've been thinking about these two potential paths that have been presented to me of late. Both of them are good ways to go. Both of them fit in my life--differently, but nonetheless, both fit. Now, I'm fully aware of the fact that I can't have both, and that I must choose, but I'm wondering if I must choose now.

Two blogs ago I journaled about something in my life that I wasn't sure was for my life. I'm still not sure, but I want to think and rest on it some more. I want to think and rest on this other option some more too. The more time I give to both the better able I will be to see which one is the path I should take... or for that matter, if I should take either. It's highly possible that neither one is right for me, and that I'm supposed to create a third one for myself.

I need to sit down and assess my life. Look at it from all directions. I need to prioritize big time. As much as these things are important in my life, there are things that need to take precedent, the number one thing being school. I've been lagging behind, which isn't good. I need to get back into the swing of things here in these last few weeks. I need to not do badly this semester. I keep looking forward to the summer, which makes me long for it, which makes me not want to focus. I need to keep my head here in the present and focus.

Bah.

Anyway, I have a Spanish test to study for.

Love love.

SAC

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Just some thoughts.

There are a couple of people in my life who have recently become people that I can lean on and that I can trust. Trust is something that doesn't come too easily with me. It takes me a long time to truly trust people, and I can say that these two people are two people that I trust with my life. I don't know what I would do with out them in my life.

Emily: I'm so glad that I've met you and that we had the experience of Eclipsed together. Thank you so much for all you do for me. On a daily basis, you are there, to make sure I'm okay, to tell me that even if things aren't that they will be, and to just be a friend. I love our friendship so much, and I'm so glad that each day brings us closer to each other. I love that I know that if I need to talk, I can call or text you, and you'll be there for me. I love our weekly dinner dates; I look forward to them. I love that we've started going to church together. I'm excited for our Thursday night girl fun and Friday adventure this week. It's going to be wonderful. I'm also excited that we're going to be spending more time together once the show starts. Thanks for always listening to me. I hope you know that I'll always listen to you if you need me too. =]. You're amazing.

Rachel: I'm so glad that you called my name out that day in Krannert. If you hadn't, it's possible that I still wouldn't know you. I'm glad we talked that one night outside of the library--when we bared our souls to each other. That was a great night. You are a truly amazing girl and an amazing friend. Thanks for letting me come to your room at all hours of the night to either laugh about something or to cry my eyes out. Thanks for offering to give me a ride when I fall on the side of the road, even if I turn you down. ;-]. I hope that we can continue to grow in our friendship, and that we stay close always. I really respect you and your wonderful heart. You know that I'm here for you, always, too. You're beautiful and so is your heart.

Both girls: I love you.



I'm supposed to be studying for Spanish. Bah.

Love love.

SAC