"Why'd you laugh, when I know you hurt inside?" -Keane

Today has been trying. I had my Western Lit paper due today, which I did get done about an hour before it was due.

I hung out with Logan, which was kind of strange to say the least. I think we may actually be okay, now, though.

I am telling myself in this second to NOT STRESS about this thing going on with a certain person. NO STRESS! I have entirely too much stress from other things to be thinking about that right now. I just need to let things play out as they would even if I did stress, just calmly. I can, oh! I will.

I am at that point int he semester where that breakdown [you know the one, the one that everyone has, but no one EVER talks about] is almost eminent. Everyday, I feel more and more building. I know I will have the breakdown. It's not something that I can, or really want to prevent. However, I want it to be somewhere that I am not around other people, because it's not something that people should be subjected to. It's terrible. And I am truly sorry to people who have seen me in that state.

I am now, packing up and thus, leaving the library, I think for the night, because, I need a night off. A night away from this building. I have been in this building EVERY SINGLE night for three straight weeks. So, I am going to watch House with Kirstina. It is much needed.

Thanks to all those people who have been truly wonderful in my life as of late. You know who you are. I really appreciate it.

Thanks.

LOVE LOVE.

SAC.