I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

I can't really decide if that's a good thing.

When I think a lot, I tend to over-analyze things, and then I'm in a bad mood. I really hate being in a bad mood. It's awful. I'm not really in a bad mood right now. I'm more in a non-mood. I'm not really feeling much of anything right now. Perhaps that's best for now.

I've been thinking about these two potential paths that have been presented to me of late. Both of them are good ways to go. Both of them fit in my life--differently, but nonetheless, both fit. Now, I'm fully aware of the fact that I can't have both, and that I must choose, but I'm wondering if I must choose now.

Two blogs ago I journaled about something in my life that I wasn't sure was for my life. I'm still not sure, but I want to think and rest on it some more. I want to think and rest on this other option some more too. The more time I give to both the better able I will be to see which one is the path I should take... or for that matter, if I should take either. It's highly possible that neither one is right for me, and that I'm supposed to create a third one for myself.

I need to sit down and assess my life. Look at it from all directions. I need to prioritize big time. As much as these things are important in my life, there are things that need to take precedent, the number one thing being school. I've been lagging behind, which isn't good. I need to get back into the swing of things here in these last few weeks. I need to not do badly this semester. I keep looking forward to the summer, which makes me long for it, which makes me not want to focus. I need to keep my head here in the present and focus.

Bah.

Anyway, I have a Spanish test to study for.

Love love.

SAC