The burnt bagel effect.

So.

Today was--today was not too hot.

Hmm.

So, I'm in a place in my life right now--finally--where I can truly say I'm happy. I stand here today and look back on October 1st, 2008, and I know that I am much happier than I was then. My life up to this point has been pretty tumultuous and there have been times in my life where I have been unhappy. This time is not one of them.

I had one of the most amazing summers of my life. Truly and honestly. I learned so much about who I am and what I want out of life, and that is so wonderful. Now, at the beginning of the school year--save for a week or so that I was in a small slump--I'm doing really really well. I'm motivated, and I'm studying. I don't have a social life, really, but it's been okay... because being busy has made me incapable of having any sort of drama in my life whatsoever. I've never really known what that's like, since I've always either had my own drama or someone else's ALWAYS burdening me. I must say--it's rather nice.

However--being busy all the time also prevents me from thinking about a lot of things. Which, in a way can be good, but I'm also a firm believer in not bottling things up, so it can put a strain on a person. So, today--after I spilled coffee on myself, had my trail mix bag explode open al over me, accidentally got bleach on my brand new shirt at work, and face planted it into the sidewalk in front of Krannert, I lost it. I've not cried [at all in about two weeks, which is really unlike me] like this in a reallllllllly long time. It's not so much that was sad, or felt like things were overwhelming as I think I really just needed to cry, release emotions. I really did feel better afterwards. I'm still pissed about my shirt though... bah.

Tonight, Chelsea and I had "life story" time, which we haven't had in a really long time. It was so nice to talk to her, because I know that I can talk to her about whatever I want and she won't judge me, she'll mostly agree with me, and she'll listen. It was much needed--on her part too.

Hmm.

I wrote for a long time tonight when I got home. I wrote about my life and things that I need to write about. Things that I'm tired of waiting for.

Okay life. Please start now. Thank you.

I'm going to continuing being happy though. I like it.

Also, I love Emily Williams a whole whole lot.

Love love.

SAC