Interestingness.

I love my Dad.

So, today was... Well, it was interesting.

It started out kind of crappy, because it was raining and yucky, and I was in an off mood, and then I had a sort of nervous breakdown in the middle of Podunksville, Iowa... I don't really know what happened, but I think that all of the tension of all the days combined came out, and I just sort of couldn't function. It was weird.

I also think that part of it is that I miss my friends. A lot. I know that Erin is on this trip with me, and she was so wonderful today when I was upset, but she's only one of the people that I need in my life constantly to function. The others are just absent. And frankly, it makes my heart hurt. Physically hurt. I talk to people on the phone or through text messages or on Facebook, but it's just not the same. I understand that time apart/alone is supposed to be good or something, but I think it's bullshit. I just want my friends to be close to me again. Okay? It makes me wonder if that week in Richmond, alone, is going to be a good thing after all. Ehh. I do, it will be good for me in assessing myself and who I am, time that I DO need, but I know it will be hard to be away from everyone I know.

Tonight was good, though. We're in Rockford, IL, at some family friends, and I did have a really good time tonight. We played Taboo and told stories and just had a lot of fun. It made me happy. They're only two hours away from Chicago, so I think I may suggest to Emily that we drive down here and visit when I'm there. It could be fun.

All right. I'm done. I have somethings to do. I'm going to write for a while, and read, and then go to bed, since we're getting up unnaturally early tomorrow.

Love love.

SAC