I should probably post.

I'm not even really sure where to start.

So much has happened since the last time I wrote.

I feel like it is the middle of the semester, and I am very very close to that breakdown... you know, THAT breakdown that no one likes to talk about but everyone has at least once a year. And... there has only been two weeks of school. That is a bad sign. It really is.

These first two weeks so far have basically been... awful. First, my car got rained on and had flood damage. Then the French class fell through, and I'm now in Shakespeare... Ahh.

And, I've also been having to constantly deal with my parents in this new house. The unpacking [that my mom and I are pretty much doing], the buying of the new furniture, the assembling of the new furniture, the breaking of the new furniture [Emma knows this story], and the constant, yes constant, yelling. About EVERYTHING. The TV stand broke: Yelling. The toilet paper holder came out of the wall: Yelling. There's a piece of paper on the floor: Yelling. The dog is barking, so there is already loud noise: YELLING!

I am about done. Actually, I am done. I have way to much to worry about with my classes to deal with all of it. I really just want to be able to NOT LIVE WITH THEM ANYMORE.

So... I really need to bring my GPA back up this semester. I have a 2.9, and in order for me to get into the Graduate program I want, I need a 3.1 [at the lowest]... but I have the "Oh so wonderful" Shakespeare class. Which... everyone who knows anything about Berry College knows that this is the HARDEST class at Berry. Period. So, basically... I will not have a social life if I have any intention of bringing my GPA up to where it needs to be so I can start applying to places next summer.

[Epic Sigh].

I am feeling like I am loosing touch, sort of in general. Not like lost touch in the "I am not longer corresponding with that person" kind, but rather, the "I am going completely insane" kind. Maybe not... but I sure feel like it an awful lot.

I do sort of feel like I am loosing a couple of my friends, too though. Not loosing touch, just loosing. It's a really horrible feeling, actually, especially wince these are two people who I considered my best friends. We are just fading from each other. And sometimes I feel like they feel that need to work at being my friend, and now... they just don't want to anymore. I guess I never realized how much of a handful I was. =/.

I should go now. I have mounds of speech homework to do, so I am going to do that now.

Love love.

SAC.